her

pretending to be jealous,
knowing damn well they cant compare.
makes you talk to yourself at night,
makes you swear.
without a sound,
cant let her hear.
you know you’ll be in trouble,
but you cant drawback now,
cant get your mind off her;
just the thought of it all feels wrong.
so you just let her.
let her ruin your guts,make them turn;
let her in your head,make yourself give in.
just enough so shes comfortable,
just enough until you are unbearable.
you cant see others as clear,
she wont let you .
wont be a spare,
wont be reserved;
and certainly wont let a backdoor.
no room for obstacles to your reach,
hurdle your way out,she needs you to preach;
and needs it now.
so plainly,yet so desperately.
 patiently and carefully,
forcefully in your mind.
breaking in memories, breaking in your life.
but you cant complain;
just surrendering,
just letting her reign.
knowing chances are low,
captivated by her,but moving slow.
should know one thing and one thing at all;
making her satisfied should be it,
the answer you were looking for.
shes got on your system after all,
theres no getting out now,
not until her call.