Suicidal Tendencies

I feel as if I'm gonna suffocate,
These people I really don't want to aggravate,
This pain is just too real,
Although, I cover it up like it's no big deal,
This seems like my own personal obsession,
Also my worst possible demon,
I feel as if I'm just invisible,
F*ck, these feeling's are just so consistable,
There's no way I can restrain,
To just keep myself from saying "F*ck it" and numb the pain,
I am my own worst enemy,
Plus I have all these fucking suicidal tendencies,
My life's filled up with all this abuse,
And God, I'm so easily bruised,
Maybe I'm just insane,
That's why I can't get these thought's out of my brain,
I feel as if I'm already in my casket,
There's got to be more than life than all this bullshit,
Lord, please help me find a way,
To just wake up another day.