Selfish

Who are you ?
Do you want to hear my secret.
I have many friends
Making friends is not hard
I go to parties and have fun
Hooking up with a guy is not a hard thing to do when you look like me
Getting someone to like you is not hard when you look like me
I am fun and talkative and pretty and cool and popular
I have a nice style
I get compliments plenty
I am never home
Always out

Yet…
I feel this way
I feel ugly
My face is unsymmetrical
I’m pretty average looking,
Now that I think about it
I talk too much
Nobody is interested in me for too long
Sex.
My body.
Is all they want
I procrastinate
I never have interests for too long
I hurt people’s feelings
Because
Of
My
Own
Unconscious
Selfishness
Selfish.
Something I am
I take these pills knowing people care and love me
But I don’t care,
When I look into this pile of white pills I only think
Swallow.
As many as you can
Now hurry,
Someone can’t walk in or else they’ll help you
But you don’t want that you want to die
Because
You
Are
Selfish.