Life for a moment

In a small universe I see clouds roll I see tears shed rolling down a face with no features a life with no teachers pain with no grievance its hard to give up when the destination of relief is not felt.  I hear god in a faint voice saying how could you give in to temptation? How could you not save reserve? How could you not speak to me?  Seldom I remember my childhood when summer rains were weekly going to state fairs with friends or amusement parks.  But when is dark will you be there in the rain will you rescue me if I'm drenched? Can you console my deepest worry when clouds are blurry and the sun sets in a direction I'm not chasing its deeper than discerning more so a yearning.  The younger me has a soul that was washed away with worry and the older me is not numb but still cold not lost but my soul is in a state of parish.  Why would I be stressed by the ones who don't understand what I've overcome and lead with faint hearts and fake embraces but yet I don't understand.  I don't understand how this world can be named united but yet were divided into classes I don't understand how too much is never enough I don't understand how we choose leaders that never benefit the world only themselves I don't understand