Deceit received

Lord I'm praying to you bless me o Lord bless me
Yes I prayed but what I got was nowhere near what I prayed for
The pain the tears the confusion the drama I suffered while they laughed o how they laugh year after year they laugh for every love I had for them they had a trick up they sleeve to hurt ha break me to wallow in the joy of seeing my pain my suffering by why
I cooked the smells the aromas beef stew with carrots potatoes a pinch of red wine made for cooking wafting on the breeze followed by cookies is that chocolate chip I smell brownies moist mingling melting meeting my taste buds like hands. Caressing my cheeks so gently feathers gliding across my skin
Snapped into a reality feeling the brason harshness seeing the pause to catch the instructed cruelty they've planned for me
The dazed look of a mind being invaded attempt to control own run ruin for there amusement picking me making love to me than leaving for 30 days no explanation no reason why home one day gone the other 12
Messaged I love you while you sit on other laughing at me for what I don't know
Lord I prayed to you now I'm the source of a ghost laughter speak why to me