Analysis of Pessimist

Did I become a pessimist?
Could say became a specialist,
that I should see a therapist,
even could have some benefits

I realize my filter is blacked
Someone says "x", I feel attacked,
even though it's fully fact
My past came up, my face got smacked

Now I don't believe in love
Learned that it is not enough
They break your heart and break your trust
And then they leave you in the dust

Bit by bit, day by day, became more and more bitter
But eventhough my heart is cold I sure am not a quitter
Embrace the pain and see the light, maybe even some glitter
Change perception to the bright, really do consider
Soon I'll be the optimist, I do not need no liquor