Analysis of So Many nights

Many nights I cried myself to sleep
Many nights I ask God to take me
So many times I think about taking a bottle of pills
So many times I ask myself why?
So many times I break down and cry
I ask God to put his hands over me
All this pain and hurt unbearable

Where were you when I needed you
When I cry out for you
How many times I shouted out for you
No one knows the pain I went thru
No one to turn too
Sad and lonely
Over and over again

I hold on to my pillow tight
No one makes me feels this way like you do
Luckiest girl to the lowest person on earth
Tried of feelings this why
I wanted you , cried out for you,
I refuse to cry anymore
Where were you when I needed you the most, God giving me the strength I need.
I'm getting stronger day by day.
Tears in my eyes, drying out