Analysis of If God wills

There is a lot going on
If God wills I will
For the fortune fortunes the brave

But where am I? I must ask
On the journey that must not be told
In the story that is not to tell
In forbidden castle where walls are tall

Taller than your ego

Come back to me I whisper
But you cannot hear me
Come back to me, to my misery where no one wants to stay
Calling it even was a mistake and it was one sided
You loopholed animal
You creature that's been following me
To the depths of my heart

Now you're laughing at me?
When I cannot stand
Another minute to be without you