Analysis of DARK CLOUDS

Among the dark clouds
I am just floating around.
Resting for a while But again starting to float
Cause I must not be found.
I have been holding
a layer on layer
Thinking I have to stay stood
To make everything for them fair.
But time to time I feel exhausted
Then try to find the lost self
Then I feel I can't have something
Which I have never felt.
Walking through it is a tough part
So thinking about telling someone seems good
But again the evil side holds me back
And here I am all alone left stood.
Why can't they feel the pain
I have been being under
Why they seem to judge everything from outside
Is it the present of the uneven moments
I have gone through in making my weak self hide.
 still there is something that keeps me floating
I wish someday I will start flying
And that something will be clear
And its ray will make me see the white clouds appearing:)