Analysis of Thoughts

The excess of my thoughts rewinding,
Going back and forth never subsiding.
Wishing they would slow down or cese,
Am I blessed with a curse or cursed with a disease?
Wondering wonderless hoping someone will understand.
No one will tho, seems no one can.
Everyone hoping, wishing for the best.
Makes me wonder what about the rest.
Rest of feelings, thoughts and dreams.
Not to be left out, or Were all is seen.
So give me liberty or give me death?
Why is it so hard to want the next breath.
Even if its all or all that we left.