Why don't I love?

Why don't I love?
When my heart is caught
by your soft voice?
When my soul thinks of your embrace
every night?
When the thought of your lips
feel right on mine?
When your hands care so deeply
in my hands entwine?
When combined with you
is a miracle worth two?
When my body aches for your touch
as slowly as a robins wing beats in christmas dreams?
When the love of our connection
needs nothing more than you?
When all I want to adore is
your sweetest self, eating, drinking... ?
When you put my fears to rest
far from my command to love you?
When your smile told a thousand times
would never be enough?
When the thought of never seeing you again brings tears to every surface and vein?
When yet my wounds dried
on your loving goodbye?
When nothing hurts more
than being without new thoughts of you?
When I couldn't bare you hating a thing about me?
When I only want to think of our future together?
When all I expect is you?