Analysis of Just a Kid
I lost a lot when I was little, like my house and my dad
Like the way he walked out the door and I didn’t even get to be mad
Because I was just a kid who didn’t know any better, who was still growing up
So when I begged my dad to stay, and he said “tough luck”
I wasn’t sure how to handle a rejection from someone I loved
The silence hurt so much more than just saying “you’ll never be enough”
I was just a kid, and I wasn’t sure if I even wanted to grow up
I’m neck deep in a loop of my past
Wiping the blood from my hands at long last
It’s not my fault, and I try really hard to believe that
But I’m just a kid, who shouldn’t apologize for things I didn’t break
When I cried to my mom, she thought I wasn’t okay
I just missed my dad and the family that he took away
And somehow I still felt responsible for all his mistakes
When you’re just a kid, it’s easy to lose yourself in love
Bleeding yourself dry just to feel needed
Your resident yes-man has just conceded to anything you’d like
Just promise not to leave because I couldn’t handle another loss
I don’t think I can grieve again
I’m just a kid, and I’m scared of the world
And it’s my dads voice in the back of my head
Telling me that all of my love has been mislead
I’m terrified of everyone leaving me behind
When will everyone remember that I’m too ill-defined?
Too hard to manage, and love, and too hard to keep
That’s all that my dad ever taught me
And I’m just a kid, who will spend the rest of my life
Pretending like I’m not completely terrified of standing by and watching everyone go
And a reminder to my dad: I’m not a kid anymore
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Metre | 110111110111011 10111101011101111 01111011111010111101 1111111101111 111111000101111 01011111110110101 111010111111010111 111001111 1001111111 11110111011011 111011101011111 11111111111 111110010011101 01111010011101 11101110110101 1001111110 1100111101011011 1101110111100101 11111101 1101011101 01111001111 101111111101 11011010101 1110010111101 111100101111 111111011 0110111101111 010111010101101010101 00010111110101 |
Closest metre | Iambic heptameter |
Characters | 1,665 |
Words | 333 |
Sentences | 2 |
Stanzas | 8 |
Stanza Lengths | 3, 3, 4, 4, 5, 5, 4, 1 |
Lines Amount | 29 |
Letters per line (avg) | 42 |
Words per line (avg) | 11 |
Letters per stanza (avg) | 154 |
Words per stanza (avg) | 41 |
About this poem
Although my parents divorced when I was ten, my dad had been absent for a long time. I killed myself trying to get him to love me. I was too little to understand how wrong that was.
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Written on September 30, 2023
Submitted on November 11, 2023
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