me a shot of jack
to numb my delusional fingers
from burning pages of lost time.
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tear a piece of my mind
seat it by the table sun,
gaze at the pine-trees
I borrow patience from the feeble
waiting for you.
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you, getting your... – by azdi404 | 25 Views added 1 year ago
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Foreign bodies, we are Yulia
subtle Innuendo conversations
What’s the take from this?
I don’t feel like going home tonight
carrying double-layered words
Wrapped in jagged phrases
from the fool’s room...
=
Sooner or later, it ends.
I want... – by azdi404 | 6 Views added 1 year ago
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scars of moonlight
tapping my window
from my Jerusalem moon
when city worshipers sleep
exhausted defending their gods
with sticks, stones, history & verses
I rise to pray in my own way
evidence of faith weighs heavy
=
I've... – by azdi404 | 1 View added 1 year ago
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next to me
nurse me
take a look
I have a box beneath my skin
with feelings in it that control me
it pushes my breath "til the day I die.
surviving wild hordes of thoughts
in its locked bone caves
forgiving me still if time didn't... – by azdi404 | 2 Views added 1 year ago
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runs through the waters
pure without an echo
relaxing me once
hurting me twice
sinking into your hair
I scream into your head to be heard
as I stand in the corner of your thoughts
under a shadow, you passed me down
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let's go back to where I stood
back to where I remember
by the oak tree
out in the countryside
by the outskirts of my deserted desires
let me revisit my thoughts and feelings
I might have been mistaken
what you might have wanted
... – by azdi404 | 3 Views added 1 year ago
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never lasting lies once or twice
I felt you in moments knocking me down,
postponing goodbys,
holding me tight,
it’s my shame holding me
between the obscene & the bold
loathing the moment
until it came to light.
I was born &... – by azdi404 | 4 Views added 1 year ago
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I.... who am I?
memories in your head
another character on the exit
nostalgia on paper
just another.....
sick drop in the bucket...
I had my face burned
rumors about me scarred
smacking the bottom of a bucket
that comes tearing... – by azdi404 | 4 Views added 1 year ago
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away from those tired eyes,
I told myself,
comeback from away
the flame’s gone tonight
burning from the inside
reminiscing the days of Babylon...
now a restless night
traces the footsteps of the days,
the destructive echo’s
... – by azdi404 | 4 Views added 1 year ago
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I was alive, floating frameless
the perfect portrait in this gallery of life.
once happened, the pictures fell,
the moment I changed,
I went wrong in phase orange.
I didn’t think gracefully.
nothing left to be done,
nothing to be... – by azdi404 | 4 Views added 1 year ago
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I make a full bow
with half emotion,
quarter lust
a quarter to spare
net weight of words
overexpands my capacity…
=
I foresee my gain
here's the move on
are you mad yet?
=
dispensable, recyclable
alive I am in your... – by azdi404 | 2 Views added 1 year ago
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don’t tell me that you’re here (Elsee)
just drop by & let me drop where I am
don’t let me know how you prayed
at the walls of my ruins
don’t let me understand your vendetta
drop the peace pin from your heart
& kill me with... – by azdi404 | 3 Views added 1 year ago
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I touch the sky
poke the clouds
But I can’t feel god around
Where is the power to help me?
I land on earth’s crust
But all I feel is the dead
Where is life that springs from it?
=
I have a photograph of you
and a backup in my mind
... – by azdi404 | 3 Views added 1 year ago
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don’t receive me the same,
my deformity dipped and solidified
into my self-acceptance...
what was the norm
enhancing your beauty
in the background,
deejaying soundtracks to your move.
keeping my head to play this funky horn
a... – by azdi404 | 4 Views added 1 year ago
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I lay here stone cold, numb.....
on a makeshift sick bed,
in a straight jacket,
my most suitable attire,
you straddling my chest,
questioning my wasted years without you,
=
mirror stuck on the ceiling,
counting my eyelids... – by azdi404 | 2 Views added 1 year ago
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left the lights off a while ago
so I continued us; without you
I played both sides of us
in comfortable skins.
I had you do what I wanted you to do,
and so did you, rolling in digital pages
and surviving through all IOS editions &... – by azdi404 | 2 Views added 1 year ago
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my stance
a prophet of fools
watch me preserve it
and I forgive you too
I get choked up
when I let myself go too far
but I don’t run.
=
feelings feed awareness,
whatever it is
I disengage from everything but you
show... – by azdi404 | 2 Views added 1 year ago
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moments I let myself go
feeling that she’s growing apart from me,
it hurts to spread the chilling wings of doubt
fill in the vacant spot where she used to reside,
the warmth of imprints of her lips still scar my chest,
the lashes of her... – by azdi404 | 6 Views added 1 year ago
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dawn,
I settle down at the front gate
at the temple's door
sip rose water from Stoney springs
to heal the panic
let me witness the wonder
of you uncoiling your fingers
healing a beheaded flower stem
breathe into it before... – by azdi404 | 2 Views added 1 year ago
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the pacific ocean
on the sunset’s blue side,
my spirits paving a silver wake
towards the ski’s end,
to the high counsel...
an exclusive flight with control damage,
seeking the queens’ meadows,
what a high-hope mystery...
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Because I misread your gaze
when you said hello
I searched for diamonds in your lies
I touched the fire you setup underneath my skin
In pools of innocence & deceit
between what you said and what you meant,
Yet I was trapped in your childish... – by azdi404 | 5 Views added 1 year ago
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a shade
let me hurt
to tell the old man about you
give away a piece of my illusion,
but not the actual pain,
I never comprehended his words
about suicidal dreams,
undecided about a way to decipher
a vision of me
hot... – by azdi404 | 4 Views added 1 year ago
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People fall in love, But I walked in
I was waiting; I knew it was you
When I saw what you could do.
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ransoming the night captive
revealing the moon's beauty
giving it a chance to cater
the lonely and broken.
Some light on the... – by azdi404 | 2 Views added 1 year ago
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I caress my fragile head
a womb of emotions for you
a cave carved by enslaved fingers
to make room for your ego
painted walls with the color crimson
from torn fingers ...
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Windows flooded by light
purging its sorrows on departure.
... – by azdi404 | 5 Views added 1 year ago
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my kisses if you feel more than many,
signs of loneliness,
tales of many,
subdue me if you must,
hear my stories over a burning plate,
whenever I felt you on those last days,
remember my drafts,
tales of unreached journeys you... – by azdi404 | 7 Views added 1 year ago
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I have visions
inkwells of colored raindrops
for every mood ...
collected from the breasts of clouds
Rejecting my suggestions
Pens shun scripting my story
Pages dismantling its lines In protest
Because I portrayed you as a villain
Sign... – by azdi404 | 13 Views added 1 year ago
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I rushed the river of believe
Scooped a palm full
Washed my mouth
to call her name
On the outside
I shared my skin with some sun
stretching blank canvas sheets like Picasso ....
drag your fingers on it
drawing with liquified pain,
... – by azdi404 | 7 Views added 1 year ago
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Come unhinged,
Come barbaric
Come in that all-night mode
come with malice intentions
orphan me for you
Come with true colored seething teeth
when you think of me,
I'm your victim on demand
calls come to me in vibes,
Rattles & hums,
Did... – by azdi404 | 6 Views added 1 year ago
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was a beautiful addiction
when it began
at the eastern wall, I lied
with my spider monkeys
going on 300 weeks so far
accumulating new pollution on my side
bleeding excess black
words I find unnamed
meanings untagged, marked in red... – by azdi404 | 3 Views added 1 year ago
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revenging words
follows the light
crashing walls
every curse falls
into rust & salt
over the fat lady's voice
dubbing the pipers' flute
dancing out of town.
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it's somewhere deep
that's taking me
fast and steady ... – by azdi404 | 6 Views added 1 year ago
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I’ve been to the edge
I’ve played with fire before
but not like last night.
After midnight you become sin free
so cast the first stone on me.
My mistake...
was choosing the wrong colors
That painted your mood.
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a shot of heavy... – by azdi404 | 1 View added 1 year ago
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Crystal balls smooth
the wrinkles of time to feel
and gradually know what it's like to live.....
I dreamt of questions I didn't want to be...
I rode through a place called heaven
but I couldn't stop for the scenery...
I smelled the... – by azdi404 | 3 Views added 1 year ago
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last seven hours
falling off the clock
scrapping down the wall
bidding farewell.
from blurred eyes gazing at a photo,
it too, tethered to madness fading,
slowly draining.
all the lines and colors of you
a blank white paper basin
a... – by azdi404 | 1 View added 1 year ago
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I can write about you
If you want
just break me inside
activate a capsule
to the victor goes the spoils
just like before
It feels like a new religion
you come as an epiphany
as I've never known you
come and see my blind cane
leisurely... – by azdi404 | 3 Views added 1 year ago
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day when you grow older...
you'll feel no connection around you,
feel as an empty young woman searching,
as if the world has betrayed you,
in the intervals between days ...
& you will feel it one day...
you see, no one survives it,
no... – by azdi404 | 1 View added 1 year ago
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in me itching
to be laid down
to purge the load
of what it wants to draw
a reminder at your feet
a red carpet for the royal walk
to the coronation house
for the hijacked inauguration
I’ve been there on the hard side baby
... – by azdi404 | 4 Views added 1 year ago
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I crave to mine her
extract a deposit
Just some relic souvenirs....
A palm print on my chest
A footstep she forgot
A token for my final trip
Was it too much?
Money comes and go
It pays for a beautiful funeral
it stops at the... – by azdi404 | 5 Views added 1 year ago
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evening you were in my room in a corner
you held me and taught me how to breathe
but never to control.
until dawn one night on a Persian rug
you explained how to love but never to whom
another evening i had dinner for two
... – by azdi404 | 4 Views added 1 year ago
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It’s nightfall & I’m lost with the bewildered roads
that never wanted to reach her...
Lost in the empty hills from attrition
with the night owls scanning the darkness
Feeling the pulse of dawn
The sky is still in limbo
About the memory... – by azdi404 | 7 Views added 1 year ago
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when i was beside her
floating in passionate arms
below the neckline,
under baby breaths absorbing
lullabies & black magic hymns
just to drown at the center
under the gaze of dreamy eyes
holding on to angel hair for a... – by azdi404 | 5 Views added 1 year ago
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write what i feel & i envy my words
as i look at them laying on rows neatly as coffins
of what used to be blank lines without feelings
or a destiny... useless if not sent.
now these words make you smile happy
now they get to touch you... – by azdi404 | 1 View added 1 year ago
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my disposition first ....
a language lost like dead tongues
the lost blood in your lips ....
desperate to feel serenity ....
to know i am the man lost in your solitude .....
calling to meet you between
my thirst & desires,... – by azdi404 | 1 View added 1 year ago
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the dead in the cool grounds
that dared to run across your minefields
claiming to be your friend,
hypocritical lives,
resisting the moment
when today touches tomorrow
but I can’t find you there...
I feel estranged
but... – by azdi404 | 5 Views added 1 year ago
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If so graciously ...oh king of mine.......
may I squeeze the soul into circles.....
to fall on the standing points
I’ve longed to understand.....
I was and still am in a dumbfounded mood
about the spotlight around me and never on ....... ... – by azdi404 | 5 Views added 1 year ago
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I’m departing my lovely world of silver rain,
rivers of lust, land of solitude, walls of gold
Where I could call the roses from the earth
to give me their breasts to touch.
My beautiful land
where I was still gathering the dirt of earth
... – by azdi404 | 1 View added 1 year ago
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a dream one night
I was working from the inside of dawn
somethings want to hide
not the moonlight, not the naked spirit of you
it’s taking me for a low ride to find possessions
grounding yourself on me gracefully
transporting me... – by azdi404 | 3 Views added 1 year ago
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a song before eyes
before the smoke and fire
the light of the early morning
i love for you to turn me on
to trace the meaning of your face
inhale stories, of ether life gone
in glows of a thousand night
in the middle eastern... – by azdi404 | 4 Views added 1 year ago
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me with a smile
burn me over a mile
free me in overtime
pulverize the pulse
punctuate the punishment
pursue procrastination's
it’s your prophecies
when you said, " I’ll be with you forever."
but where are you?
I know a... – by azdi404 | 2 Views added 1 year ago
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tears you’ve held
driving alluring eyes on me,
let them go......
not to be friends now,
but to be lovers only,
we need to talk about
& silence is not the way....
I felt the mutiny in my veins.....
receive me before I rupture... – by azdi404 | 8 Views added 1 year ago
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tense, wary eyes
Caught the mood of my blues
Suspicion around you
Am I a traitor or a rebel?
Was I cruel to you
on the first impression?
It wouldn’t matter to you.
the thought of freedom
from your dictatorship
is sickening
How... – by azdi404 | 6 Views added 1 year ago
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the dark faces fall down as i have
under the traffics merciless feet
to taste the dirt of life ...
light a candle for the blind like me
in a squatters basement where I stay...
guarding captivated spirits in
the solitude of... – by azdi404 | 7 Views added 1 year ago
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The luggage of my past
On the train of time
passing me by to Waite ahead
at the moment spot
Where I’m likely to greet you
To tell me I’m out of line...
Heavy fog on my shoulders
Pushing me off the edge of honesty
into the pit of lies.... – by azdi404 | 6 Views added 1 year ago
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I dived into your brown eyes
a portal for your soul
A virtual blueprint map of you
a broken compass in hand
inter-winding roads
An omen of what’s to come
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This how I go out tonight
More skin
More time
To share my piece
to... – by azdi404 | 8 Views added 1 year ago
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did you put me off
when you could’ve had me closer,
then deny me a smile,
crush me with a whisper,
hand me a frown for closure?....
from the corner of my mind
burn me with the delicate touch
of your rejection ....
pain is... – by azdi404 | 4 Views added 1 year ago
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I haven’t seen anything
since blindfolded by your gaze
Just new land you imagined
Pastures of green alphabets to graze
Mirrored rivers to reflect on
The golden disc in the sky
Beating down Mildly
massaging my thoughts
Just To drain... – by azdi404 | 5 Views added 1 year ago
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I walked to the edge of everything in my infancy
but nothing took me so low as you
digging my grave as I grew into taking what you gave
to think I’ll leave you again in my high ...
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being away from you
is to ask what’s untying you from... – by azdi404 | 4 Views added 1 year ago
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A shortcut to navigate a soul
I touch your smile with my lips
I crawl the mouth slowly
upper and lower
back and forth
Edge to edge
I Read the messages like braille
Between the parentheses
of your cheeks
that frames your mouth
For... – by azdi404 | 3 Views added 1 year ago
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You had your fill & I was uninvited…
selected guest list,
special needs signed off,
didn’t make you feel enough?...
You’ve found that love
comes with a guilty price.
The stickiness staining your reputation.
What mommy and daddy gave ... – by azdi404 | 3 Views added 1 year ago
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about you
that’s the rumors
eager to devour you
a glooming light
in the susceptible side of my head
a jab in my face
your loving the other man
shun so strong it broke the walls
of my devotion
to generate hatred
I Have one for... – by azdi404 | 5 Views added 1 year ago
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dispensed words roamed
behind thick words from you
accumulates into dark clouds
hitting me like dark guilty rain ....
thirsty grounds embrace it ....
waiting for my return to quench exhaustion ...
then I blame the echos
... – by azdi404 | 3 Views added 1 year ago
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I heard a voice somewhat pale
I saw fingerprints that were somewhat gray
wrapped up for the night...
you were at the altar sacrificing me
to make it right.
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I see your life is adopting superstitious tales
memories... – by azdi404 | 3 Views added 1 year ago
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my 55 years roaming this earth
I’ve known women every so often,
but never committed forever to anyone.
because I never expressed
none asked
so I never did.
My dedication was to the captivating ones.
seldom one would come along and just... – by azdi404 | 3 Views added 1 year ago
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Oh Satan
Come and remedy
the flaws of your plans
To entrap her,
At least a prayer for the dying
Innocent parts of me.
oh Satan
Come over and waste away with me
I’m not over-dramatizing
listen to her recite epic ballads
of fallen... – by azdi404 | 3 Views added 1 year ago
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my highs & lows
I felt the shivers
that anchored me
so unmistakably in your appetite.
I gazed at the November sun
burning up like the inside of me quietly
slave to love without affinity
mistaken my ability
damned me
... – by azdi404 | 5 Views added 1 year ago
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Between birth & death
We live and die with hope
Along a point
It’s there that I met you
at a Broadway show,
taking the short power trip ride
to witness the burned acts
The charred memories on stage
of whining characters
It’s a crazy... – by azdi404 | 2 Views added 1 year ago
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I loved you the way I know
Showing no silver lining in time
Maybe a bit childish
All I promised you
Freedom, setting you free for me.
The little I’ve given you
Holding back time, indulging myself like a spoiled king.
Look how close we... – by azdi404 | 6 Views added 1 year ago
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I’m gonna fly away from here
find me an isolated coast
to drown in a little spring
filled with your pure dreams.
Dreams that yet have to reach you, baby
I’m gonna walk to my future grave-sight
carve my own headstone
just in... – by azdi404 | 5 Views added 1 year ago
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A link is gone, and with it, spacious words ....
that filled the gap between us and disintegrated.
Hung for so long untouched ...
words never deceive ...
but the mind has more than two meanings
jester-ed from your eyes ... or so i... – by azdi404 | 7 Views added 1 year ago
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me far and away
don’t have to know where
I’m going there
roads to nowhere
I could hear myself
feel my instincts call to me
I lost you a while ago
hearing you from the distance
calling from everywhere
I split into pieces... – by azdi404 | 3 Views added 1 year ago
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you’re all I could know
indecisive eyes
rising heat from my palms
I intend to mend
common complications
pray once for keeps
for you endlessly
a reason to tear you
from the inside out
never care to stop
until your... – by azdi404 | 4 Views added 1 year ago
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of summer,
sleepless night
from my bedroom floor,
detecting a newborn ego
with blurry visions,
wandering steps
of an untamed beauty
fighting caged innocence,
untamed fantasies
capped under the skin,
diffuse my light
... – by azdi404 | 3 Views added 1 year ago
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I loved you there,
when dreams and reality
agreed to be enslaved
empire of pride crumbles down mutually ....
for your fill
Back through the alley....
navigating suicidal tendencies...
it killed the will and emptied the soul... ... – by azdi404 | 7 Views added 1 year ago
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fresh gaze
in disguise
no one knows
a tender stroll
in the spur
blossoming warm
infantile breaths
mending my soul
after losing authority
consent all over
I’m sure you don’t mind
a change, a pass
devil sponsored... – by azdi404 | 3 Views added 1 year ago
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This is becoming the end
My love for you is dying
All the things I touch dissolve and your face fades slowly
How many times I’ve told you to come and save this thinning...
One more night isn’t saving it
Two more kisses aren't enough
Three... – by azdi404 | 4 Views added 1 year ago
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spirit carried you away into a state of numbness
with those roulette kisses,
inhaling poisoned youth lyrics
bumping you onto lovers lane, a state below shock ....
did anyone hear the bellowed voices
that ushered gently out of your... – by azdi404 | 5 Views added 1 year ago
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me bleed out the evil me
to even the score
to make you feel better
on the inside & in my head
so you could believe
that I don’t envy you
underneath the surface
of gray withered
uprooted landscape
going all out ...
... – by azdi404 | 7 Views added 1 year ago
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…
what can I say about feelings
that is strange to me now
trying to befriend me after defecting?
just like you crawling to me with memories
calling me back ...
every filter angle has a phase,
obstructing my sight
marking... – by azdi404 | 6 Views added 1 year ago
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Freak Healer
deja-vu dealer,
I lay me down
this beautiful mutilation,
wanting sleight hand healing...
explore this freak,
contemporary medicine is a joke,
some call it deformity,
but you call it art...
I love your patronage.
Knock... – by azdi404 | 6 Views added 1 year ago
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I was in Jerusalem
some miles from a town
where you vacationed
I had to be at the wailing wall …
For a personal matter, a grievance
God spoke to me there, demanding my devotion
that I promised you
God has vowed to me what most wished... – by azdi404 | 9 Views added 1 year ago
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& touch a dream
just lose an appeal,
mesmerized by the forbidden fruit's flavor,
obsessive temptation
by a slithering friend,
a little bit of satisfaction,
the burn of enough ...
the morning after,
tenderness became a cliche.
... – by azdi404 | 3 Views added 1 year ago
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It can’t wait for you,
It’s five til midnight
I'm here with a cup of morning coffee
at the oriental express station
a crowd of one.
I’m dreaming out of sync
Scattered like smoke in the wind
leaving me as you left me
just the shells of... – by azdi404 | 6 Views added 1 year ago
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I’m trying to be, so let me see...
I’ve found out what I came for...
unwanted ...
let me dig .. let me plow..
in a bottom-free land..
in your dreams, I swam to explore you ..
in a deep ocean of green..
the grassy green you slept on
... – by azdi404 | 7 Views added 1 year ago
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i remembered you
last night from the sky-box
in the northeastern crater of my mind
in a battle between two thoughts
on a white canvas page
as opposing pens annihilated each other
racing to the top title position
to relay from me a... – by azdi404 | 5 Views added 1 year ago
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So tell me elsee,
where am I supposed to begin from?
Should I start from when I first saw you?
When you dismissed me in the beginning
or Shrugged me off at the end?
Or is it possible to when I first hugged you
in my debut dream?
Or dared... – by azdi404 | 13 Views added 1 year ago
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a river, I lingered
waiting for one of the thousands of faces
of my past to recognize me,
time laps without a hand in sight.
vibrations in the east, some part of you,
memories drown my headaches
stabilizing the message for a minute... – by azdi404 | 9 Views added 1 year ago
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maker
dire solver
can I shake her
my brown eyes raider
a feeble tenor
tune soother
an eternal quiver
when she’s closer
I feel the seizer
a permanent collar
questions... – by azdi404 | 9 Views added 1 year ago
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my skin, I can stir my disease
lay on me a sheet or two of letters I wrote you
on the other side of the moon, for a while to drown ....
well, you could smile with my useless happiness,
It's a troubled time when it’s turned on
not far... – by azdi404 | 4 Views added 1 year ago
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Dead inside here for 20-something years
For being an unbeliever
Waiting for a call
Struggling for direction
Searching my strange aliases
Digging into my ancient feelings
God is older
But God is not helping me
I’m all alone down here
... – by azdi404 | 13 Views added 1 year ago
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This life is for me
My innocence is a blank page
My life was a few mundane lines
before I met you...
Your presence tells it all
dictating the pace
scratching a signature
Validating my worth
Divine Pretending
Untouchable you are
All... – by azdi404 | 12 Views added 1 year ago
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I watch myself from the high tower
of your bottom deep pit
where darkness breathes overhead ...
surrounded with nowhere to fall,
conscious so clear,
superiority so thin of ancient wisdom,
sacrificing what I know,
drifting through... – by azdi404 | 3 Views added 1 year ago
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Be the sacred temple
accepting worshipers offers
Listen to our prayers,
wishes & whims of devotion,
adoration & love for who you are
In our odyssey
that gravitated toward you
an endless quest
As a mirage to a Mecca
in a deserted... – by azdi404 | 5 Views added 1 year ago
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Dead inside here for 20-something years
For being an unbeliever
Waiting for a call
Struggling for direction
Searching my strange aliases
Digging into my ancient feelings
God is older
But god is not helping me
I’m all alone down here
... – by abdelsalam altayeb | 48 Views added 1 year ago
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