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ty :) sorry this was so late

Hi ambrosia

I love this!

Just so everybody knows I'm not suicidal everybody has moments in time when they feel as though that's the best option. Some more then others some more real then others. I am no exception the difference between me and others is I write to reflect on those feelings when I read it I realize there is to much to live for. Some people will judge this poem and the person who wrote it but those same people are just to scared to say out loud to one person what I am telling millions. It's ok to feel like that you just need to find a way to deal with it and writing is mine. After I do those thoughts just become how I felt for a moment in time. Recently there was a death in my family my cousin my sister my best friend I took it harder then any other I have ever encountered for a few reasons. I overdosed on her birthday and remember trying to walk towards the warmth I felt. but my deceased loved ones wouldnt let me pass by. All I remember is the closer I got to them a great sence of peace and warmth came over me. But there energy willed me back and behind me all I could hear was people calling to me, it so noisy and cold back there...I know people reading this may think I'm crazy but it's TRUE. When I came to I was so mad they brought me back I remained that way for days lol. I'm glad they did now I have to much to do before I go but I'm one of the lucky few that have an idea of what to expect. And that realize those feelings are normal to have, and that have found my way to cope with them in that moment. Thank you no need for concern more »