Never Will Bill

Vivian Timmins 1955 (United States)



This whole messed started with you
When I walked in on you TWO. That is my daughter & you.
Right there, that would be sufficient, all that you did but you didn't.

Any person of sane mind would find that insanely hard to unwind. It's way too big, hard to untangle, has that extra twist, that deeper pain, if you weren't before, for sure you'll go insane.
Trying to process not one but two, I'm much madder at her than you. There are lines one does not cross.
Crippled by my own blood, you did that to us for a dud?
Down I go, what a fall! Now I'm bleeding, have to crawl
With out warning, while I'm mourning, the heartless bastard puts me on the street,   now it's triple shock, how much can I take, migraines pounding 7 day head ache, I miss you I hate you. How can this be? I feel like I'm going crazy, the price I'm paying for you, forever death for my daughter, I refuse to forgive, for as long as I live.

Far from right how I was wronged as if I never belonged
I put into you, and you put into you.
I'm trying to hang in there, it's not going to well
I'm always so happy smiling and upbeat, all that has changed as I feel defeat.
You broke me, it's up to me to mend.
It's a tough one but I know things will change. But you never will, you can't go any further, your stuck with yourself, miserable Bill.
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Vivian Timmins

Lost my son when he was 22. My daughter is wicked & hateful. I cut her from my life. I live in novato california, it's a very hard time to be left alone. My pain& anger is a lot of what I write, to vent, this way I avoid confrentation which leads to no where. Not when dealing with people that do not know how to communicate and are not concerned about you, only concerned with themselves and the outcome they want at that given moment. Selfish, self centered, too immature to take responsibility for their actions. On paper I write what I'm feeling and there are no reprocussions for saying how I see it or feel it & the numbskulls just keep going round and round with their lack of ability to handle situations calmly and move past their limited thinking. As for me, I like to listen, I like to grow, be open to what's outside the box and not be ignorant. In this world we live in, there is no excuse for ignorance. We are in the information age. more…

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