That Feeling

That feeling

That feeling of feeling your not good enough.You're not dope enough for someone to show interest in you. That deep hurt, chest pain type of hurt, your heart feels like it's squeezing, tight and tighter. Like someone is using both of their hands just squeezing your red bloody heart until it burst. That's that feeling of pain you feel inside when you don't feel loved. When you don't receive the same back. When you don't receive that same anticipation of the wanting to please you in every way. The wanting to see you smile when I bring a gift. That feeling isn't the same when you don't receive it back. That love waits and waits for that romance that you never received or faced. To only embrace the way you are. That way of being selfless just to see another smile while you wait and wait for that feeling that you never faced.

Poetic ER