A Regular Teenage Mind



Am I ok I ask myself  
Is this the day I kill myself
I can not stand myself
My feelings have become overwhelming
And I know I’m over barring
But people have stopped caring
So I have stopped sharing
Sharing myself to the world
My feelings
My identity
And my personality
My world is breaking
And I can’t stop shaking
My heart is aching
This spell on me is overwhelming
And the therapy isn’t helping
I wish it was all ending
The crying
The dying
The remotion
The emotion
I’m bottled up inside
I just wanna die
What If I kill myself
What if I end the depression
The obsession
The suspicion
The suspicion I lose it
The suspicion I end it
The suspicion I self harm
Don’t be alarmed
I’m ok I tell myself
I’m ok I tell everyone else
But Inside Is a Hole
A crater in the world
A deep black hole
Where all the negativity controls
Meteors hit my heart and I can feel the burn
I can feel the hurt
You ask if you can help but the answer is no
It’s a battle in my mind
not a physical fight
You can go to the battle and try to defeat
But your mind will be to easy to beat
You can do all you can
But it will make you weak
Up until the point you break like me
My puzzle can’t be fixed
I’m missing a piece
The piece is my heart
It was ripped out my chest
Locked away never to love again
Don’t be afraid
It’ll be ok
I’ll get through the barriers eventually
But eventually isn’t soon enough
I need to brighten up
See the light at the end of the tunnel
But i've tried
I can’t brighten if the Sun is dead
And I can’t reach if the tunnel doesn’t exist
But I don't even care if ‘ill be missed    
I'll get a break from all this fucking shit
But these are all just thoughts in my mind I tell myself
I won’t really kill myself
I don’t wanna die
But I can’t lie
I just wanna die
I just wanna break down and cry
I don’t want to be bottled up inside
I don’t want to know that people are just fine without me
I want to hold you
I don’t want to lose you
I love you more than you know
But it will never show because you shut me out
I know things got rough
I know you can’t have trust
But why not at least for us
I didn’t think it would end
But you left and I felt dead
Now your gone and I have nothing left
Except the broken heart in my chest
And the memories that haunt me in my dreams
And your voice inside the back of my head……..
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Submitted on April 03, 2021

Modified on May 01, 2023

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kyleigh borah

This is what a lot of teenagers feel and i just want them to know that they are not alone also i know its more like a song but its worth reading. more…

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