Sex

Sex
Far like an ocean last drain
Yet near like an immense pain

Feelings ah feelings.... ufff...
But we’re where the hell is real feeling
It’s like an alcohol a dizzy fizzy for sometime
But a serious headache when clock hits the next morning nine

It’s the one thing I like to do most
But u dnt know how much it cost
It cost self esteem it cost u disconnecting
In return it gives a memory which is heart wrenching

I am not saying doing sex is wrong
I am just saying it need lot of guts to stay strong
Stay strong and refrain to indulging in someone
Yet love him for sometime like without him u are no one

To add on ther are chats and msgs all over
Come on.. even on bed I felt several time when will it all over
Because after a point it’s so mechanical
That it feel to sit home and rather be more practical
But again nights come with immense want of it
Oh f*ck me.. it’s all i want to say
With all that passion and body to slay

Someone help me someone hold me tight
I need to get out of this afterall it’s my fight
Dpression loneliness anxiety and fear
You are an only escape oh dear

I respect you because you are so raw
You just come to me as I saw
You know I love you so much
But love cost something and I am not in mood to give you as such

 So for now leave me to my own
Because I want to be myself
Before letting myself thrown
Even a movie leave u with feeling
But sex leave u so numbing
So dnt come to me sex for now
Because i want to know this time
My self how
                                            -Neha Sinha