Fourth Times a Charm

I guess a fourth attempt
would be
How do you say
Reaching

I've dillied and dallied
With this whole life
Thing

Third time was supposed
to be the charm
Charmer
No
Still dallying

Still waiting
Still trying to hide my eagerness
Wanting it to start sometime soon
I’ve got clothes for it
Laughter for it
Stored up in my chest
Pressing against it all the while

Yelling at it in my free time
Through the window pane
Pain
As I listen to the ice machine
crack and crunch
I’m cutting back
I’ll need it for this new thing  
When I’m free to do
Life

Time will tell
I'll just focus on
the clock
Tick
Tock
The fourth one
Somewhere past this