you'll only see me at home

you'll only see me at home,
whether i'm happy or sad alone.
you will not see me shed tears,
although i'm in pain and a great fear.
i will always show my smile,
even it is not worth for that while.
living means alot of life,
survival implies to stuggle not death.
inspite you perceive me as a fool,
i'll take you as my pal.
no matter how lowly they think of me,
i respect their awful view.
you'll only see me at home,
 when i am empty or in venom.