Unwanted

Life. Or something like it.
This infuriating knowledge
that I
don't want to be here;
that it would be so much easier
on everyone
if I wasn't
Having no one to really talk to
no one to calm my fears...
to help me
if I fall
Knife pressed to yielding flesh
so easy...
to sever a life-
your own life.
Knowing
that if all things
happened the way they should have
that you would already be
dead.
                             September 23, 2010