unbearable pain

Its that time again to enter the nightmare
As i lie in my bed with thoughts unable to bare
Not one person understands my pain
Not seeing how im slowly going insane
My hearts beating so hard its hurting my chest
Another night restless getting no rest
This bed feels so big it never gets warm
But its become my shelter in this horrendous storm
Scared to close my eyes as i know whats there
Seeing those words "do not enter beware"
I fight so hard to keep my eyes open
Yet feeling so tired, drained and broken
So once again i whisper an pray...
Please dear god let me be ok
Im asking for one nights peaceful sleep
With pleasant dreams not ones where i weep
Keep me safe just stay by my side
Please stay with me... be my guide
My body needs rest to re cooperate
As you well know im in such a state...
I hope my prayer gets answered right about now
Can i have this one thing... am i allowed?