Toy

touching me slowly
feeling upon my
instant sanity
instant perfect thighs

running down my legs
moving up my spine
all my memories
papered in your mind

now, just now will i ever see
the end of this misery
the beginning has come to me
over and over again

will i now be the sanity
that ruins all their perfect dreams
my plastic skin so perfectly
thrashing and crashing before

all these things coming sweetly
to my own silver eyes
moving up and then down
just like you on my thighs

playing with my synthesized hair
i just can't be
the one thing that you see
that the others can't see

am i just a dream ?
am i just your toy ?
will i ever see ?
will i ever -

move forward, into reality
ever so oftenly
dancing and twirling
into your hands and eyes

your paper thoughts despise
my existence, so now
i just can't glow just how
just how will i die ?

forever, i'll live
i'm a toy ...
forever i'll be your dream
your fantasy, your reality