The Painful End

Today's the day my life takes it's toll.
Today's the day I loose control.
For now my hour is coming near,
And then my end will soon be here.

My life is at its meaningless end,
and the sorrowful feelings I can't mend.
For bitterness in my heart grows stronger.
And the meaningful choice not to live long.

As I hang my head to cry,
Thoughts grow stronger of wanting to die.
What a choice of wanting to live,
Yes will not be the answer I give.

Day to day, and night to night,
I live my life in fearful fright.
Chances of life to live is set,
That chance for me, I will never get.

To think joyful thoughts to be set free,
A thought that shall never come to me.
To stay alone in sorrow forever shall be,
The meaningless, cold life set for me.

Lonely I shall forever be,
Lonelyness is the life of me.
Tears of sorrow and tears of fear,
For now I wish my end was here.

To end it all some choose to be,
I think these things, but not for me.
To be afraid and hurt forever shall be,
This lonely, cold, bitter life just for me.

To hear the painful words of rejection today,
I wonder why they all come my way.
The angering tears of heartache in me,
I tell everyone to just wait and see.

As I tell everyone just to wait,
Soon they will all feel their fate.
Soon I know they will feel my wrath,
As I send them on the same painful path.

Yelling, "You're getting what you deserve,"
The hurtful pain I make them preserve.
They've hurt me for to long you see,
Now, they live the life of me.