the haunting memory of the holy trinity

At a loss of a friend in true
For she caresses me in the void,my heart in blue
Loving memory,blessings to her i call and pray to
For yet i wonder where and how are you
The haunting memory in dreams and life shines like such a hue

As i recall to the ancient bliss,i descend to the island i see amidst
Now heading to the celebration in the tower of light
The sights and sounds inside are such a might
 To the people n friends
 happy in trance,for now we all dance
Dinning pleasures for us tall
Taking excess to overthrow us all
Haunting memory i look to you calling me
A new thought,ill explore this place that be
Until its guardians try to tame thee
Time sure is a thief
Happiness here and there eventually leads to grief

We wish to stay there,here and now
My heart is lost in a hopeful mystic cloud

Which allows me to see what i want to see
But my vision grows now like a body conscious sea
Or a existence of a one love flowing free
At a loss and left with lost choices and missed chances
Life will recall asleep as to give brief n subtle glances
To moments of great splendor and grand innocence
Dreaming hopes n wishes,dreams just little instances

Plagued with memory of paradise
Having fauled n kicked out i now realize

Running into an abyss
The exit bus i now miss
Left to face the fears,to i awake and feel my tears

Where and how long had i been
What was it that godly paradise had deemed a sin?