The disadvantages of Courage

I love living and I want to be free but my insecurities continuously speak to me
I love God I love people and I love to laugh
I like the idea of looking for my better half
But fear is a powerful thing and once let in, it begins to crush everything that you have within
Its like a cancer that eats you until you're paper thin
What is left is fragile and very hard to grasp, until you find the courage to land on the ground at last
there wil be puddles and risks of being torn
you will definitely get rinkled and worn
But no matter how I eventually lay at rest, I will be glad i didn't continue to lay on a computer desk.