Tempered With Time

in chronological measure,
I am in my prime.
my health is the only treasure.
cossack B and Epstein bar steal my time.
I reveal only strength,
in denial of the reality and alone.
building up walls to lethal length,
my body then my soul,a loan.

one regret or gripe.
love and be loved.
am I the marrying type?
lacking is attackin between us beloved.

maybe you didn't see vulnerability.
A great deceit so U believed the lie.
 mind twisted I see it's my liability.
hopeless heart heavy, as I sigh.

where did my love go end up?
a delay or forgotten apology.
no reason to wake up?
today perhaps we meet my apologies.