Story of my life

Memories of eons ago,
wont let me eat or sleep,
but that was just yesterday,
 I walk the room we used to walk,
 I sit on the bed where life choices were made,
I read pictures of long ago,
trying to see a thousands and one words,
I had missed if there is an answer there for me,
they say time is a healer,
what a lie! It's gets harder every night,
I had lost my head more and more each time,
 while getting head,
 I had beg you to change your altitude,
come down from your high latitude,
all you wanted is getting high,
when you should have wondered,
how low I feel inside,
who am I should talk to,
when you are out cold?
 I have no idea where you stand,
when you place your trust into a liars hand,
 you have made your choice,
 and I had made mine,
it doesn't includes you,
sorry babe you had to go,
living worlds apart is how it will be,
 wont change ever for you and me,
 I cry myself to sleep every night,
not to get you back,
but for magic that we had,
this days I just want to Earth to open,
 up and swollen me whole,
'now I have to learn to erase history,
 to delete all omissions from my misery.

©malenky malenky
6/26/2014