Random Thoughts in a Female Mind

The sun is rising in my face and the computer screen and keyboard has a glare on it..

I can’t seem to shake this shake in my head... It won’t stop and I don’t really know if it will ever go away... I kinda like it...

If I say what's really on my mind, I feel like an idiot, If I shut the f*ck up and don’t say anything, I’m looked at as an idiot...

Maybe there will come a time where I can relax a little more, and care a little less, and actually claim my property...If I had real estate <_^

Do i scream and jump around? Do I just cry? Do I trust people? Can they be trusted? there’s so much drama to this...

Is there really a chance of her moving in? Is this a game? Now that I talked to you yesterday about what you want I’m not so sure. Although if it is true I better start finding a prescription for some valum....No it’s not intimidating, it’s irritating.

If people could trust me and TELL me what they REALLY think, then my life wouldn’t be so F*d UP.

If I really thought about it...and really sat on it...I would know better before I open my mouth and let my heart jump out and run way ahead of me.

Sometimes my head wants to scream profanities... but then I see you and I remember why I’m trying to behave myself...

I always did think I would make a Great mom....

I feel: light-headed, angry, joyful, teary, upset, like a loser, needy, want-full, wishful. dreamy, hurt, deceived, lost, found, cared about, careful, outrageous, ridiculous, foolish, smart, sexy, ugly, fat, hott, skinny, about 2 inches tall, idiotic, stupid, small, smart in some things, burning, like someone doused my flame with water and stepped on me twice just to say "haha, look what I can do, you have nothing", I’m holding something over my head, can’t break free, locked my own cage, just need a hug, sad, depressed, lovely, sarcastic, diva, "Claimer of all things that are mine".

I’m just gonna hold my breath and see if anyone cares enough to catch me from drowning in this pool of life.

All I really want is you. All I really WANTED was you. And I’m sorry but I’m just not gonna go anywhere.

Can It be "hugz tiem" now please?

I'm not racist, I hate everyone equally.. Hey I’m an equal opportunity hater!!! LOL

I'm not jealous... all the time.... just when I feel the light change color... and when I see something that I’ve wanted for a long time.....with that person....

I didn’t say anything, I didn’t do anything, I just wished it all to happen, I was asleep for the rest LOL

I don’t start problems, I finish them.

If I was the person who caused your pain, why did you try and get back in my life? And why weren’t you so concerned about me in the beginning?

This. This right here at this very moment in time while I’m typing. This is gay. How I feel is so gay and(not literally)

Sorry, I wasn’t trying to fight over you, I just know what I should’ve kept back then and I don’t wanna lose it this time.

Some people just don’t understand the meaning of SHUT THE F* UP. I don’t understand it either half the time.

"If you have something bad to say, don’t say anything at all"

One day I won’t have to worry about this anymore...One day I’ll be able to sip a pina colada in my backyard while my future kids play in the kiddy pool with my future husband bar-b-q-ing.