Open heart poetry

An incision on my heart
Revealed a portion that is dark
My decision to restart
Before it's permanently mark

I'm a maniac, confess
Used to party before tests
Feels like cardiac arrest
Not a smarty like I guess

Open heart surgery
Is not being performed
Broken heart poetry
My life on a platform

Forgot about the good
Remembering the bad
Things are never all good
When all I see is bad

I've done enough wrong
Time to get it right
Might write a tough song
Called stand up and fight

I've opened my heart
The hell with what you think
You've been drunk on lies
Who sells that stuff you drink

I can lie to myself
To escape reality
What that says about self
And my personality

The good with the bad
Understanding duality
Before I go bad
God, please change my formality