No Hope For Me

Forget everything i ever told you
I'm just spitting my heart out again
I put my soul into my art
Only to have it smashed back into my face
I'm done with all their watchful eyes
I write for me and me alone
Now is the time to sanctify my mind
It is my only accomplice
And must be well protected
From both me and all the criticizing eyes
My heart is such a problem
I'm about to burn it out
I want to be a cold dead zombie
Always wandering with peace of mind
Never having to worry about pain ever again
Sure it has its drawbacks
But the trade off is so much better than what i've had to endure these years
The only known cure for me
p*ss to suffocate myself with people that truly care about me
And if thats the cure
There is no hope for me