Maybe I Need God In My Life

I’m getting high.
Blind by thinking I’m wise.
Pain deep inside.
Need to ease my mind.
Seeing easily I could die,
Wasting my time.
Something I can’t rewind.
And I want to shine.
I’m really trying.
But nothing is fine.
It’s never alright.
Maybe I need God in my life.
So many dreams.
Ones I’ll never reach.
So it seems.
Cause it’s always been grief.
So what will I ever achieve?
When will I be deceased?
I got kids to feed.
No time for me.
Questioning things I once believed.
Losing my self esteem.
No more peace or way to be free.
I’m really in need.
I’m losing my sight.
Things I once seen will never be right.
I think I need God in my life.
It’s said life isn’t fair for no one.
But since I was young,
I really was never a son.
Now I feel like a bum.
It sounds dumb.
And it hurts my pride.
But I cry inside.
The pain starts to numb my mind.
And I try to move with time.
Trying not to loose sight,
I continue to fight.
But against all odds.
Maybe I need God in my life.