Like An Ant

Like an ant always trying to climb a wall,
 Broken down, am I destined to always fall,
 Yet another day, another year in my life,
 Old things go new come all looks alive,
 But the past haunts, future gives strain,
 What did I loose & what things did I gain,
 So much loss, yet everyday my ego grow tall,
 Torn into pieces, am I destined to always fall,
 I mourn in silence, I do whimper when quiet,
 Still I am enjoying my life in everyone's sight,
 Oh there you are, no its just a false image,
 I an not drunk, it's just effect of my craze,
 I need to spit it all out, yet I murmur to self,
 I want out, yet I just keep hurting myself,
 I can also fight, I can be full rational but I don't,
 Because I believe in hope when anyone else can't,
 Too much I have said, still this isn't even near all,
 My feelings like sand, am I destined to always fall.