Internal words

Sometimes I try to be hard
and not write for a while to you
To make you feel this way as you do
unsure
For a while
Is this love real
Are you in love with me still?
But my words are growing in me
And then I just can't
To not let you know
That I care that I want
you
I wont beg you for anything
I'm strong enough to not do it
But I miss your words
The sight of you
Momentarily I'm scared
That you go away but I know
That everything will be ok
I still have hope
For this special love
But if you ever decide to
Not start this in real
Please tell me
Tell me everything you think
I'm so hungry your soul
Within me
If you decide to go away
I'll understand
I'll be sad
But life is like that
And we both must want
This same
To make this love
Great
Every day with you inside
Is like a new way
new beginning, another start
We can say hello
and we can say goodbye
I have had this dark thoughts
From time to time
That you don't care
That you would stop it and go away
But then
I can't, I can't stop my self
I wish to have you
Someway
Even with your stillness
And when you are so silent
Even if you don't come to me
And if I wont come to you
I still want to be with you
And I can't play with you
In silence game
To let you
Be hungry me
more
I'm not able to do that yet
So forgive me
That I let you know again
That I'm with you
That you are my man