I'm mad at you..loving an alcoholic

I’m mad at you…
I’m mad at you for looking at me with those big blue eyes and melting my heart
I’m mad at you for kissing me with your soft lips while taking my breath away
I’m mad at you for being the kind hearted person you are
I’m mad at you for the amazing fun dad you are
I’m mad at you for always smiling
I’m mad at you for making me laugh and love life
I’m mad at you for having such strong arms that make me feel safe
I’m mad at you for the way you make love to me that still sends chills throughout my body
I'm also mad at you for making me worry
For making bad choices
For not knowing when to say no
For not you realizing how much this hurts our family
For not knowing when to stop
For not getting it under control
For trying to justify it
For not completely quitting
I’m mad at you …because when you drink excessively...You are not you
I’m mad at you because this is going to kill you...And I will be alone to pick up the pieces without you
I’m mad at me…for loving you as much as I do and not being able to walk away....

Kc