I'm Alive

Death is the Truth.

I want to be brave, I want to cry, I want to be stable, I want to die.
I want to love, I want to be loved, I want to create, I want to die.
I want to this, I wish I could that, I just desire to whatever, I only want to die.

Death is the only truth I know.

It's fear enticing, it's so exciting, it's dark and gloomy, it's running through me.
Death... What does it mean to you?

I want so many things in my life, constantly looking to the future, constantly troubled by the past, constantly figuring out the present. I'm constantly trying to make it last but, but;

Death is the only truth I know.

We go through life stable and unstable up and down inverted extroverted tilted sideways, we all go some way but do we go my way? Or do we choose someone else's path, do we ride on the rails of someone else's dreams. Do you lead or do you follow?

Death is the only truth I know.

It's the one thing we stay away from, crawling and kicking and screaming! NOOOO NO I DONT WANT TO DIE I WANT TO LIVE FOREVER! Sliding down this tilted table into a garbage can labeled death. It's scary. But why must we fear it?!

Death is the only truth we know.

Every greater purpose is a lie. It's created by man. Our imaginations fuel everything we live for even the most logistical thinkers in the world know it to be true. What are we running from? What are we running to? Where why when who what how!? It's oblivious to us. It's unseen, it's the blind spot of human nature. What are we here for? "Just a cycle." But why would we have minds if we weren't created to have greater purpose; than it would make no sense! But nothing ever really makes sense!

Death is the only truth I know.

I want to learn to play the piano, and drums, and guitar, and saxophone and many other things. I want to compose music, I want to touch the world with my mind. I want to write books, I want to dance, I want to act, I want to sing, I want to paint I want to draw, I want to be something! I want to find love. I want a girlfriend to lie next to me. A wife who will cry with me. Someone who's smell excites me. Someone or something that I can wake up and look forward to living for, that's what I want! I want to be a great. I want to be known. I want to hide from the world too. I don't want all of these problems. I want a solution.

Death, it's the only truth I know.

I'm not going to kill myself, I'm not really brave.
I'm going to learn all of those things. I'm going to do all of it. I'm going to find that girl. I'm going to live a life of I will instead of I want! Why? Because that's the next best thing to the only truth I know.

Alive, it's the only thing I am.