I wish

I wish I had let go
Much better than I did
I wish I took in stride
The thought , let old dogs lie
No such thing
There was pain
Its over now
But, still I strain
I fret
And nothings happened yet
I live in anxious dare
And still, I wish I had let go
Relinquished all my fears
I wish that I had
Just walked away
I beat myself
Cause I need help
Afraid that you
Won't come through
Re-hatch the things
That bring more pain
A rock and a hard place
That's where I'm at
Letting go, but looking back