i need to find my way

In some of my dreams,
you ask my hands in marriage
Sometimes we sit together
And share our fantasies
And sometimes I say no

And others times you place your place your hand on my face
And there is admiration
Seeping out of your eyes.
Other times I am alone
And I am empty
And concern
With life

I wonder how
 your chest will feel
When you see me
Walk in wonder  if my  chest will cave in