I do feel I believe

Me was told about believe
 that the bible has written down
 about love in the ancient past

 Then in school they taught me
 of believers fighting for peace
 killing in the name of God

 Abusing his name for own gain
 and how they got away
 with this sanctimoniously behaving

 What I learned  of believe
 that it's like beauty
 in the heart of the beholder

 No one can see how I believe
 and often they just fill it in
 out  of own perspective

 Nobody asks me how I feel this
 but when I say I visit church
 I see and hear the judgement

 In their attitude and voice
 their look avoiding my eyes
 feeling the distance between us

 Even if I had some good talks
 but when they hear the word church
 everything seems different

 I did not change in anything
 only was sincere about
 something that matters to me