Edge

I sit here on the edge not knowing if to hold on or to submit to the fall
After all the trials and tribulations whether judge as enormous or small

Fear these past few weeks is smug is capturing my weary soul
I don’t know what lies ahead your destination is yet to unfold

There was a time that I thought your path was free from all the rubble
But word has leaked out that you are preplanning again to stumble

What am I to do just sit by and once again be a stranger or spectator
Will your choices of destruction keep my faith alive or turn me into what’s hated

Why do you place obstacles in your very own well laid out path
Before you even leave the emptiness of cell forgotten where you were at

I beg and plead with you with every breath I could ever anticipate to take
Please for heaven’s sake you have to quit repeating the same mistakes

I know that under the layers of brokenness a healing had finally begun
If you give up on hope once again the enemy will delight in battle won

What must I do to let you see the man that is screaming to be free
What portions of a mothers soul can be given take all of it from me

From the moment you began your life in the inner part of this being
Visions of a little boy becoming the man of God was what I was seeing

If I screamed loud enough to awake sleeping angels on clouds lined with gold
Or cried enough to fill the cracked crevasse of dried valleys then would you know

The love, the hope, the faith that I still hold onto I will freely give all to you
I’m so lost in how to free you from the bondage of past darkness you hold onto