Drama and a Hole

It is getting worse,
This disease of mine,
Or is it an affliction,
My life I feel is not worth living.

A sickness, a pain, an illness,
Vivid dreams of doubt and remorse,
A family that I feel I burden,
With the drama of my mind.

Im afraid I could do it,
That I would take my life,
When before it was all just words,
But the pain that I cause,
Is outweighed by the fear of loss,
And the love from all of you.

Forgive me for my sins,
Yet I cant promise that they will end,
Im not strong enough on my own,
Please, help me out of this hole.