Depression

God,
I'm on my own again.
The footsteps behind me are only mine,
there's none beside me.
I walk alone..
Not sure where I'm going
I don't even know why I'm still walking,
Or what I want.
I keep going further away
But I'm not sure if I can go on
I look down in fear
I can't look ahead of me,
I'll see monsters,
I can't look behind me,
I'll see pain
I can't close my eyes,
Because my mind is a mess and It kills me,
With these thoughts I can't control,
I got a demon inside me,
Cuz the biggest monster IS me.
Maybe I'll sit for a little
And watch as i slowly fade away.