Was it worth it

Was it worth it
Keeping those secrets
Smiling away those tears
Hiding my fears
Then I ask myself
Was it worth it

What did I do
Just tried a little more to adjust
Among those norms
Those grotesque storms
Who preyed on my feelings
I was concealing
They mauled and clawed again and again
I healed and tried just the same
But then I asked myself once more
Was it worth it
Am I sure

Now I am left alone
To condone
It wasn't them
That fakeness was grown by me
Those expectations were shown by
Should have been left lone
For my mistakes now which I atone
I ask myself
Was it worth it

Deep inside that terror
Playing hide n seek
Still makes me shiver
I am such a meek
Just asking myself
Is it still worth it