Locked inside my head

Ive been sittin here locked in my mind like always! As the melodys flow in and the thoughts slip out! As the tears pour and the breath in my lungs is lost in an instant! While your not hear the demons presist! Clawing and tareing away at my mental fortitude! Lash by lash! Shred by shred! Breaking down the walls ive built to sustain such an attack! Yet the defensive measures ive laid forth are no match! As i venture further and further in! Step by solitary step hold more pain! Hold the crippling diagnosis which has become my disease! With each second we spend not together i feel the drift expanding! By leaps and bounds i fall victim to times bitter caress! I used to taste your kiss on my lips! Grab you by your waist! Pull you close! And release every ounce of my love to you to keep! With only one request as payment! To keep it safe! Never lose sight of it! Grasp it tight and do not let go! But as im setting here locked in my head again! All i can think is your not here with me! Your there with him! The crushing blow that has sent straight to my core will never be forgotten! Although i may never forget! I choose to forgive! I hope that with these words i can find you with a soft heart and not one made of stone! Praying that my thoughts find the place in your heart where the love i used to hold resides! And that it can light the fires ablaze once more! So that you can see that he wants the love of others! While i only want the love you possess! That i may hold it close! Keep it safe! Guarded from the cruel intentions of this cold world!