I dont want to be this way

I dont want to be this way i promise! Cuz i know that nobody wants to be around me becuz i am this way! But idk how to stop! Im just sad as f*ck all the time and feel like nobody notices the real truth in my eyes of why im so sad! And whenever i try to talk to anyone about it i jist kinda feel like i am just being a burden or like im wasting their time and my breath! Theres alot more to me then anyone knows about! I just keep it all in! Cuz i dont want anyone to feel the way i do! Tiff..I love you beyond the scope of any amount of words could ever say! But since i know your in love with someone else i try not to let you see just how hurt i really am! I know you do see it somewhat! But you dont see the real depth of it! Cuz i wont let you! Cuz i dont want you to pitty me and i really dont want you to feel bad for how i feel!!! Cuz that wld hurt my heart even more to know that i hurt you..again! So plz do me a huge favor! Be happy, be safe, and most importantly dont ever ever ever forget that no matter where you are or who your with at the time....Jesse Daniel Black has you in his heart and will love you in this life and any other life that his soul exists in! Anyways..i hope you have a great day and ill see you when i see you!