The answer to true happiness

I think about it every day, at least once an hour or more
It sounds so bliss full
Just peace and quiet
No voices, no sadness
Just darkness
Just peace
Would I even be missed?
Not if anyone doesn’t need anything
When would I be missed?
Maybe when rent is due, or A friend needs a place to crash, or dollar to spend
When my daughter needs money
Or brother or mother well who knows, could be a month or a year before anyone would notice.
My only fear is my daughter would think she did something wrong.
That’s my fear, that’s why I’m still here,
There’s no other reason for me to be alive!
Once I’m sure my daughter is ok
Good Bye
But do not cry I will finally find happiness in the darkness.