I'm Tired.

I'm tired of being yelled at.
I'm tired of being bullied.
I'm tired of wanting to be loved.
I'm tired of patience,  of promises unfulfilled.
 I'm tired of trying,  when it never makes a difference.
I'm tired of crying out of shear frustration that I feel.
I'm tired of the insults you so freely yell.
I'm tired of the deformation of character,  you so eagerly throw.
I'm tired of trying to lie to myself,  only praying for a day of kindness.
 I'm tired of of your suicide treats,  keeping me in line.
 I have loved you.
 I have tried to be all, the most understanding,  the most patient, never asking for more.
I tell you now, I'm tired. Tired of the endless struggle. Tired of the endless bullshit.
I'm tired of your empty promises.
 The vow you never intend to fulfill.
It was just another vololation, to keeps me in line.
Damn it keeps me tired all the time.