Without You

I've given up again
Every gesture has turned to sin
Arms wrapped around you,
No matter how passionate or vain..
All that's felt is pain.
Like waves violently crashing against the rocks of the shore,
Like signs that come with a murder of crows
The dangers brought with both come from within,
The hollow feeling inside,
Is something I know all too well on how to hide.
The silence screams so loud inside of me
I wish that you.. or someone.. could see.
Burried deep in the back, chained behind some gates,
The darkness swirls around, making no sound.
A silence so heavy, so loud.
I fight and I gasp for air,
But with every breath nothing is there.
Meaning behind touches will never be the same,
The passion, the love, the desires that are wished to be gained.
It's a deadly battle within my mind,
Searching for answers I can't seem to find.
A plead for connection,
A plead for some peace,
but my world's flipped upside down, a world with no ease.
The light is gone and I try to keep distracted
But when I lay my head down at night,
the tears fall silently,
because it's only in my dreams that I get to see your face again.
The warm embrace of your arms around me,
I just want to FEEL some serenity.
Now, just a memory that's all I have left.
Just a memory and a whole big mess.
A day I was never expecting to come so soon,
I look to the sky and scream to the moon.
Please save me, please ease the darkness.
Without you.. it seems I got nothing left.
You're still the hope that resides within me,
The love and life you gave, is something I need to remember to see.
The anger will never be calmed, the sadness will always come like hurricanes.
This will seem like a lifetime of pain.
The thoughts will never become silent,
And real silence is terror.
I just wish once more for a time and place where you were.