Love and pain

Under the shower, the water coming down on me, the tears the pain,
Why does it have to be me, so many people in this world? But  l have to be
Going through this of all. You broke my heart so bad I should  be killing
You. A cold bloody mess. You damaged me but l still love you way too much to even to hate you, you think, After all, You Wreck my soul, you diminish
my spirit but all through this I still love you right. What about you
 I am obsessed with embarrassment. We can both take the L you for destroying me and me for wishing bad Upon you and your next wife. I am mentally physically emotionally
drained out. All the memories did You forget all the stories, all the secrets,
all the good  times or the bad  times, bad times you left.. l can go on and on about it all, all day long
. Take it all my soul my spirit you already Have what else do you want. oooh, this is so magical all the fairytales all the happiness Happily ever after this is the place nothing about this is unrealistic. I  feel something ohhhhThat is the pain that l feel, you made me feel. There isn't a fairytale life there isn't any happily ever after,love, life  isn't a Disney princess  movie
.9 hours 15 minutes can change a person's whole life and it will never be the same again the past is the past but how bad I want to revisit it and change what happens in between the 9 hours. oh let me get out of the shower I walk into my bedroom close the door I throw all the Pictures on the floor of as I start
crying out loud wailing oh I better keep it down before someone hears me
 .i have to go to work tomorrow.And the light shuts off and the sorrow,pain, anger turns on your hand over your mouth so nobody can hear you.The tears rolling
 down, your swallowing cheek,s Your pillow is so wet to the extent you flip
 it over to the dry side, And the heartbreaking rumbling and your shaking
Poor hands of yours on your heart beating like drums.wanting to scream so bad but still yourself to be quiet .you can barely breathe. Oh, my pillow is the thing I  go to when the tears start rolling down. You smell my tears, taste it and feel the burden of the weight that people did not what to fee that he did not want to feel any more right hego..within the tears the eyes try to shut down but the body refuses to give in wondering if you will die from your sleep.With Thin
all of that, the eyes finally shut everything stops. Oh, what a day it finally
ends tomorrow with a new day for grief and sorrow. A new day to live and enjoy the time I have left life's too short. But l have a choice to end it all life isn'
It is worth suffering and pain but it is after my dear Hego abandoned me and the kids. But you know what the queen does not need a king but one thing for sure whatever goes around must and will come back around.