Don't ask me if I'm okay

I'm just
Trying not to think too far
Trying not to feel too hard
Busy counting all my stars
Thankful for everything

I try
To focus on what i can control
One mistake and the ball rolls
It snowballs out of control
Then I lose everything

Trying to improve my reality
Trying to show the best side of me
Trying to leave my comfort zone
And make personal growth my norm

My friends are asking how I'm doing
And I don't know what to say
It varies based upon my mood and
Changes by the time of day

I wish I was brave
I wish I was strong
I wish I could smile
And my problems be gone

I wish I could do all the things that I want
I wish I could go all the places I want
But I do what I can with what I have
And I'm grateful for everyone who helps me around

So please don't ask me if I'm okay
My answer will change every day
Just tell me good morning, have a great day
And I'll do the best that I can

Because life isn't perfect but it's not terrible
There's magic in the chaos, it makes it bearable
And I'm praying for things to get better
I won't give up on my dreams or surrender

I'll keep on working to be a better me
Sometimes it's exhausting to be human
I know I don't do enough as a friend
But I'm trying my best and I don't pretend